You start to lose perspective on things when you stay in one place for too long. I've been in this house for too long lately, just simmering in my own thoughts. And when you simmer in your own thoughts, sometimes they turn sour. I start to think of this place as a world apart from the world. Sometimes you forget that there are important things happening in the world. Or are there?

I live in a time where things seem to be looking down. The U.S. economy is terrible, and quite possibly, only going to get worse. In a few years, the U.S. probably won't even be a world power.

There are brilliant minds here--and they're leaving. This government has taken a turn for the worst. The historic pattern of the fall of an empire won't be any different with us. It's pathetic. And comic at the same time.

In 2012, the world may end. Uh-oh.

But what are we supposed to do? Can we really change things that much? If there is going to be a storm that wipes out half the human population, there's probably not much we can do to change it. The world may be too far gone.

There's talk on television of a galactic alignment that hasn't happened in 26,000 years. Something that big, and we think we can change anything? C'mon.

That's just crazy.

But stuck in this house for so long and you just get tired of thinking. You start to think that you are a conspiracy theorist. Maybe I know something that the rest of the world doesn't. Maybe wisdom accrues by sitting at home deep in thought. Or maybe not.

I've said this before in my life, but do you ever just feel like the world is passing you by while you wave stupidly? Lately, I feel like I've been left behind. Mostly because I hate not being in school, having no degree and no job. But I refuse to go back to a job I hate and was miserable at just because it seems like the only option. The only way to find what you want to do, and to do it, is to be willing to take risks in order to reach that. And my risk, right now, is to find a job that I enjoy, and that I can function at without being miserable when I am not there.

Does this decision even require thought on my part? Sometimes. Because I do miss the paycheck.

I say, let's slap this shit out of society's norms. Because you know what? Maybe they're not right. Maybe there's other ways of thinking of things. And there are. When I read the journal entries of people that aren't from the U.S. I realize this.

It's really a simple truth.

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I realize this is stream of consciousness, but I'm extremely bored. And you don't have to read this if you don't want to. Now think about the reasoning behind people's actions. I just figured out that I do a lot of things just because I'm bored.

I eat.
I play pointless video games.
I sit on the internet for hours at a time.
I smoke.

All because I'm bored.

It's like hitting myself in the head with a hammer. Or even having someone else do it for me.

Next time you're going to do something that doesn't have a purpose, think about that. And then you just realize that you're being too serious about life. Some things don't have to have a purpose. They can just be fun. They can just be there. Experience things for the entire purpose OF experiencing them. Haha. If the world's gonna end in 3 years, then hell, have some fun before you die. Never surrender to too much seriousness.

Bye now.